Broken Shield and Sword

I should be sleeping, but I thought I should do this before the first six hours of 2006 has passed.

Only when the year is completely gone can you take a step back and realise just what has happened.

So what has happened in the year 2005 that impacted me?

In January:

- I quit my job handed in my resignation for MPH. I needed to get ready for college.

In February:

- I joined Sages of Chaos.

- College Course Advising was done in 1.5 hours, a record.

- My grandfather passed away.

In March and April

- … I honestly can’t remember. Oh wait! I was a Fangirl Instigator for Sages. It helped take my mind off some things.

In May

- I broke up with Nicholas. It was a traumatic time.

- I discovered what it meant to be a friend. Ti, you are welcome to hit me for all the times I was negative about you going to WS.

In June/July

- Internship was a torture. Several people found out that I was single again.

- It was at this time I started indulging in my sexuality heavily. No, I didn’t do anything stupid in RL or became too explicit online. Kyle, Jay, thank you for your support at this time.

In August

- Made several new friends, attempted to support myself by driving to colleg, ended up giving up on it.

- Started questioning myself seriously over school

- Began the dreaded FTV 121 OF DOOM!

- There’s someone that I don’t want to work with ever.

In September

- Look at August

- I finally made a choice as to who I wanted to be with.

- I made it to the blogger’s meet and discovered an unknown part of the Malaysian Bloggersphere.

In October

- I lost a friendship with a friend because of my own stupidity.

- I discovered that I cannot handle angstiness.

In November

- I went back to working for MPH. I needed the money badly.

- I severed ties with college to an extent. And started realising that I’ll have to be self-supporting next year.

- Failed Nano… again.

In December

- Burnt about 75% of my gaji Christmas shopping.

- Watched Narnia.

- Resolved a few issues.

- Went for Comic Fiesta.

- Joined the Channel and found it hilarious.

- Started to speak to someone again. Thank You, You know who You are.

Nite peeps.

EDITED: I’m glad to have met these people too: John Ling, Yvonne Fong, Peter Tan, Edrei, Leslie, Jayson, Allichaton, Anriko, Geoff, Shireen and if I’ve forgotten anyone, I beg apologies.

I’m glad to count these people as my friends: Lionel, Tiara, Adeliene, Vivian, Lin, Suraj, Kak Fazura, Barb, Yi Liang, Nick. Thank you all for making my life the potpurri that it is.

Love you all.

May we have a better 2006!

Patricia.

http://www.animelyrics.com/jpop/bz/
(J-Pop) B'z: Alone (N/A)

Yuuyake no machi wa hageshisa wo sotto wasureteru
Itsuka mita sora ga boku no kokoro wo kaesu yo dokoka ni
With the sunset, the city quietly forgets its violence
Someday the sky I'm looking at will return my heart, somewhere

Atarashii kurashi ni mo sukoshi wa nareta kita dakedo
Katte na boku wa kimi wo omoi dasu
I've become somewhat accustomed to this new life, but
My selfish self remembers you

Alone bokura wa sorezore no hana wo
Daite umareta meguri au tame ni
Alone, we are each born
Embracing our own flowers, in order that we may meet

Irozuku michi wa natsukashii kaze no kaori
Daremo ga mune no oku ni yoku nita yuuhi wo motteru
The colored street has a nostalgic scent
No one has a similar sunset in their heart

Kareru koto wo shiranai namida no iro wa ima demo
Yume wo katatta ano koro to onaji
Even now, the color of the tears that don't know drying
Talks of dreams, just like that time

Alone bokura wa sorezore no hana wo
Daite umareta meguri au tame ni
Alone sora wo miagereba hitori
Gamushara na jounetsu ga fuwa fuwa to warau yo
Alone, we are each born
Embracing our own flowers, in order that we may meet
Alone, If you look up at the sky, alone
The mad passion laughs lightly

Itsuka inaku naru you na sonna ki ga shiteru kedo
Jidai ga mawari mata kimi wo mitsukeru darou
I had the feeling that someday you woudn't be here
But times change, and maybe I'll find you

Alone bokura wa sorezore no hana wo
Daite umareta meguri au tame ni
Alone koi ni ochite yukeba hitori
Hikari ni sarashite kono kokoro kogasou
You’re gone itsu made mo utai tsuzukeru koe wa
Doko made todoku darou ima kimi ni aitai
Alone, we are each born
Embracing our own flowers, in order that we may meet
Alone, if I fall in love, alone
My heart will be exposed to the light and my love will burn
You're gone, a voice will continue singing forever
How far will it reach? Now, I want to see you

I was born to fall in love
You know, we're all alone
Hold your dreams, it never ends
Naked eyes in the sky...

Contributed by Megchan
http://www.megchan.com/

At the comic fiesta channel, Aiko squashed a spider. Before that, she put a tulip in a flowerpot with a dead man’s spirit in it. This is what happens:

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For dad this time. Bleh!

Post.

Of.

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Day.

Sorry guys, too tired to think and write today.

This time, Swedish meatballs @Ikea. Yes people, I just had them for the first time today. They were just delicious!

Now I know what to eat @Ikea in case I get hungry. Yum!

KOI GOKORO

I can’t forget, heart in love
Never ever forget, heart in love

Wild Energy

Karada jyuu michiafureru yasei no energy
Tagirasete ima tokihanate
Kiseki ga okoru (atarashii sekai)
Mou hitori jyanai

Nani yatte mo odoroku hodo
Mawari ni tsuite yukezu
Muchuu ni nareru mono wo mitsuketemo
Tataki nomesareru

Sore de ii to omotteta
Sore ga futsu datta
Deguchi ga mitsukaranai mama
Arukuno wo yameru
(Dare mo imasen ka?)

Nanairo ni moretekuru hikari wo sagashi
Itsumademo sora wo miteiru
Doko kara ka aoi tori tondekuru koto
Omoinagara mado wo aketeru
Nani mo okoronai (shizuka na sekai)
Tatta hitori datta

Sasai na jijou ni nagasareru mama
Itsushika machi wo dete
Dare ka ni nozomareru koto mo nakerya
Nozomu koto mo wasure

Zutto mattaira na jinsei
Sono mattada naka de
Seiten no inazuma no youni
Kimi ga arawareru
(Kokoro ga furuete)

Karada chuu michiafureru yasei no energy
Tagirasete ima tokihanate
Mayowazuni sono mama de yukeba iin da to
Kimi ga boku ni oshiete kureta
Kiseki ga okoru (atarashii sekai)
Mou hitori jyanai

Karada chuu michiafureru yasei no energy
Tagirasete ima tokihanate
Chippoke na sekai de kurushimu koto wa nai
Garakuta ni umaru door wo hirake
Kiseki ga okoru (mabushii sekai)
Mou hitori jyanai

Mayowazuni sono mama de yukeba iin da to
Kimi ga boku ni oshiete kureta
Saa dete yukou
Mou hitori jyanai

Brimming wild energy inside the body
Overflowing, unfasten and release it now
A miracle happens (a new world)
I’m not alone anymore

Whatever I do, surprisingly
I can’t keep up with my surroundings
Even if I have found my calling
It would be knocked down

Thinking that it’s okay
That it’s just normal
While not finding a way out
I’m giving up trying altogether
(Anyone around?)

Looking for a rainbow
I’m always watching the sky
Picturing a blue bird fly to me from somewhere
I open the window
Nothing happens (a quiet world)
It’s just me, all alone

Swept along by petty reasons
Before I’m aware of it, already I’m out on the street
If there’s nobody looking at me
I’d also forget to look at other people

In this always humble life of mine
Right into the midst of it
Just like a flash of lightning in the clear sky
You appear
(My heart shakes)

Brimming wild energy inside the body
Overflowing, unfasten and release it now
Don’t hesitate, just go on like that
You told me this
A miracle happens (a new world)
I’m not alone anymore

Brimming wild energy inside the body
Overflowing, unfasten and release it now
In this tiny world, there’s nothing to be worried about
Open the door which has been buried in junk
A miracle happens (a dazzling world)
I’m not alone anymore

Don’t hesitate, just go on like that
You told me this
So let’s get out there
I’m not alone anymore

Selena- Dreaming of You…

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I’d stay up and think of you
And I’d wish on a star
That somewhere you are thinking of me too

Cuz I’m dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I’ll be holding you tight
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Wonder if you even see me
And I wonder if you know I’m there
If you looked in my eyes
Would you see what’s inside?
Would you even care?

I just wanna hold you close
But so far, all I have are dreams of you
So, I wait for the day and the courage to say
How much I love you(Yes, I do)

I’ll be dreaming of you tonight
Till tomorrow, I’ll be holding you tight
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming about you and me

Ahhh…I can’t stop dreaming of you
Ahhh…I can’t stop dreamin

Late at night when all the world is sleeping
I’d stay up and think of you
And I still can’t believe that you came up to me
And said, “I love you; I love you too”

Now I’m dreaming with you tonight
Till tomorrow, and for all of my life
And there’s nowhere in the world I’d rather be
Then here in my room,
Dreaming with you endlessly…

NOTE: I did not translate this song myself. I took it from another site, and only just realised that this post did not link back to them. Please hold on while I search for said site. ^_^ Edit: Found it. Here’s the site.

Kinya Kotani - Blaze
Tsubasa Chronicle Opening Song (TV size)

Hatenaki yume motomeru shirubenaki sekai de…

Kasanaru omoi kokoro tsukisasu kodou
Shizuka ni tsuzuku tameraimonai uta

Tooku sora no kanata kara nazariatta bokura no kage
Hitsuzen to kimagure no naka shirusareta kioku

Surechigatta toki no uzu
Kuchihatetemo kimi no koe wo shinjite

Hatenaki yume motomeru shirubenaki mirai de
Boku ga hikari nakushitemo itsuka

Kimi ga tomoshitekureta kirameku mune no honoo
Tsubasa ni kawaru kibou no kakera

ENGLISH TRANSLATION
by Tofusensei of #Live-eviL

Out seeking our limitless dreams without any clue where to look…

Innumerable emotions piercing our racing hearts,
Our ballad continues on quietly without hesitation.

Our shadows blended in from the far egde of the sky,
We take forth these memories, somewhere between whim and inevitability.

Even if this whirlpool of time we’ve come across falters,
I’ll trust your voice.

Out seeking our limitless dreams without any clue where to look…
I know that even if I lost the light, someday…

…there will be the flame you’ve lit for me within your sparkling heart;
and we’ll trade these fragments of our dreams for wings.